WEEK COLLECTION 31

2018, Photography

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It has been a long time since I posted something on my blog. Last year I took you with me on my struggle with a burn-out. I have come long way since them, but I’m still not at a point where I want to be. It is often a two steps forward, one step back process. And I need to take my time. I am able now to deal with doubt and anxiety. And I see and feel a lot more positiveness.

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One of the things I strongly notice is the desire to get out and photograph again. And I also sense a strong emotion that is withholding me from doing it. Photography is on my mind though. I gradually try to find a balance between family, work, and creating time and space for my photography again.

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I know, and also strongly believe, that I will start making photographs again. I long for the feeling of getting in a flow again, the stream of unconsciousness. I don’t feel the need to push it.

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So today’s collection is a small and moderate set of photographs from all the weeks I didn’t share any work.

All photographs by Wouter Brandsma

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WEEK COLLECTION 28

2017, Photography

I have a burnout. It is what it is. I feel detached, and filled with doubt and anxiety. It crushes me. For sixteen years I ran on adrenaline, got in a survival mode with my wife to cope with our family situation, and the system that is me now came to a hold. I’m tired, exhausted in fact. I have to refuel and strengthen myself again. I’m working on it.

Therefore my collection of photographs is small, and to me it feels unfulfilling.

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All photographs by Wouter Brandsma

WEEK COLLECTION 27

2017, Photography

I’m not back to photographing on a daily basis, but at least enjoying my natural surroundings. I try to keep my photography process simple. Same is for my post processing. I seem to be processing most of my photographs on my iPhone or iPad. With the VSCO app I quickly edit my work and get the photographs back to my computer. I like it that I can keep it to a minimal and don’t deal with it too long.

You might have noticed some previous blog posts, anxiety and self-doubt. I will try to explain these posts, and others to come, in a later blog post.

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All photographs by Wouter Brandsma