2018, Photography, thoughts

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I hoped to get on a more regular blog posting schedule, but it didn’t happen. Instead I have been working really hard on my mental and physical recovery. I’ve come a long way since acknowledging my burn-out last year. I feel stronger, both mentally and physically. I especially use positive mindfulness to make me feel stronger, happier, and more positive. Interesting how much we can alter our perspectives and force our minds to get a more positive outlook. And I’m curious how it will affect my photography.

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More than ever I feel my phone is more than enough for my photography. The simplistic interface, no distractions, and the awareness of the camera’s limitations makes it my absolute favourite camera to use. The ability to change the camera user interface by changing apps and using airdrop to easily download photographs or videos to my Mac is absolutely fantastic. My real cameras start to collect dust, seriously.

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You see, we have our preferred processes. Some like film, some like rangefinders, some like landscapes, while others like portraits. I’ve written before that gear is just so much more popular to write and read about. It is easily consumable, while becoming a better and a more completed photographer takes so much more.

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That is however so difficult to understand and requires a different and whilfull mindset from the photographer to focus more on images instead. It is a popular subject to rant about. And honestly, often fueled from negative experiences.

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So why I should I be bothered about it? I shouldn’t! Do what you want, and feel good and happy about that. It is your path, your effort to personal fulfillment. Whatever that may be. Just do what feels right.

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I’m after my personal fulfillment too. And last year, with my depressed thoughts, the low self esteem, and lack of personal fitness, I was on a completely different path. Now, I feel completely different. I’m still the same person, but with another, more brighter outlook. And I’m trying to figure out how this affects my photography. I’m in search of a new beat, another rhytm, a flow that mixes well with my personal life and work.

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All photographs by Wouter Brandsma

9 thoughts on “Continuation

  1. Thanks Wouter for hanging in there. I too haven’t kept up with my photoblogging. I sometimes feel guilty in why I haven’t posted and talked about a photo I’ve made or about a recent trip I’ve been on. And I completely understand how one can easily get depressed in this world we live in today where everything seems to happen instantly. As friend recently quipped as we get older it seems time accelerates everything. The phone camera has been all I need most of the time too!

  2. The camera is only the tools and i’m often more touched with pictures from smartphone with technical mistakes than from perfect pictures from dslr

  3. I’m happy you are back Wauter. I’m curious to see how it affects your work. Indeed a burnout is a mind-altering experience and in most cases a powerful and positive one. Take care and without wanting to be a drama queen, be attentive to what your body and mind (try to tell) you. A burnout is like taking acid. Just now and then, mainly when you are not expecting it, it haunts you with flashbacks. Be aware it will always be lurking, most of the time unnoticed almost. Sometimes it will be breathing in your neck. So listen to what your body and mind tell you.
    Good luck and go out now and create some wonderful new work 🙂

    1. I got the warning too Stephan, while finishing my recovery. In some way I fear the flashbacks, but I also feel stronger and more aware of the traps and consequences. It will remain hard working though.

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