2017, Photography

I have a burnout. It is what it is. I feel detached, and filled with doubt and anxiety. It crushes me. For sixteen years I ran on adrenaline, got in a survival mode with my wife to cope with our family situation, and the system that is me now came to a hold. I’m tired, exhausted in fact. I have to refuel and strengthen myself again. I’m working on it.

Therefore my collection of photographs is small, and to me it feels unfulfilling.

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All photographs by Wouter Brandsma


20 thoughts on “WEEK COLLECTION 28

  1. Wouter, as always, thanks for your thoughts and photographs. Recharge? Go take some pictures of trees and dogs. 🙂

  2. Good luck with the burnout. I have been in similar places at times and it’s never easy. Or, rather, it’s easy to get stuck in it, sometimes. There’s an old Arab proverb (I think it’s Arab, anyway), to the effect that: what you think is coming at you…is coming from you. Sounds a little like a cliché, I know – but it seems to have some truth to it. For me, anyway. Keep breathing – and thank you again for the images and photographs. They speak to me.

    1. I don’t know Miguel. Sometimes you come in a situation that becomes part of everyday life. In my case I have a family with two children, both with autism. Two years ago my son got a stroke which even more so affected his and our lives. It all got just too much without making good enough progress. I need to recharge now, so I’ll be able to fulfil my part.

      I hope you’re doing better now.

  3. Still dealing with the consequences of my burnout and depression in 2009, this hits home with me. Hard to understand for people who have not gone through this, and not something you can fix with some extra sleep. It’s life changing. Not just in a bad way – it makes you question and keep questioning your priorities.

    Photography can be a great escape from all of this, and there may come a time when you must/want to let it go (a process that I am currently going through).

    Take care.

    1. I think, you’re right that it is life changing. There are so many mixed emotions going on. Allowing myself time to work on myself, my health is not easy. I’m not worried how photography fits in. It can probably help me focus and enjoy the small things in life. You take care too, Robert.

  4. Sorry to hear you’re still struggling a bit, Wouter. I hope it helps to know that there are quite a number of us out here who’ve followed you for years and wish you well, not just in your photography, but more importantly, in the day to day grind of life’s challenges. Keep the faith, often when things seem darkest, help can appear from unexpected quarters, if you’re open to seeing it. Be well, my friend.

    1. I wish the struggle was just a bit, Greg. Unfortunately this one hits me hard, but I know I have some wonderful and caring people around me. I need to cope with the bad days and work more on the good days. Thank you, my friend.

  5. Perhaps you can find strength in not letting your photography dissipate. Every time I see an alert that you’ve posted in my inbox, I am excited to see what little scenes you have extracted from society. Know that your work brings interest and provokes thought in someone’s day.

    1. Thank you so much. I know that creative expression is very much a part of me. It can help to find balance between personal family life and profession. It is comforting to know that we’re surrounded by genuinely beautiful people.

  6. Wouter, I found your blog looking for reviews of the GRD III and then GX100, and have ended up buying (and loving) both. I’ve been reading your blog from the start and enjoying your words, pictures and the comments. Just wanted to say that I know it probably doesn’t help you much with your struggle now, but people are enjoying your work going back years, and by you sharing your work and thoughts then, and continuing to share them now, it does encourage and inform and inspire others no end.

    1. In fact, it does help me a lot Dan. So much appreciated, and I love it that we all have a shared expression. And though mostly being a more introvert person, I feel that photography and writing as an expression is very much a part of me too. And I hope to do more with it.

      1. I’m glad it helps. I relate in that in life I’m generally a quiet and introverted person too, but online I’m quite happy to chat/write loads! And photography gives me both an escape from everything, and the feeling that I’m finding and sharing beautiful things with others, which also helps my overall mood and feeling about the world.

        PS/ Just picked up a Ricoh CX1 for £20, and it has nearly all of the same fantastic user interface of the GRDIII and GX100. Nice big screen and a pretty great lens too! Ricoh made some gems!

  7. Wouter, Hang in there. Keep taking photos. While caring for my Mother I found walking and photography gave me a much needed break.

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