For my family.
I felt exhausted after my son had a stroke last Tuesday morning. After a dramatic day, we were so glad he improved some what and that some great medic staff took care of him.
It is all like living on automatic pilot, the days passes by at 100 km/h and I know that some day I’ll hit the wall.
I don’t really know why I photograph or take photographs on a daily basis, but somehow it helps me to keep my head above the water. I guess it helps me coping with the things that occur in my life.
He is such a champ, fighting to cope with the new deal. Just day four and already achieved to walk twice with support.
There may be some bends or dents on our path, but the only way is the way forward.
Maybe my thoughts jump up and down, but it is exactly how I feel now. Life feels upside down, but to be honest I have no idea on what side I am. All I, and my family, can think of and do is going straight ahead.
All expectations drastically changed after this week, but I find it intriguing how quickly you readjust. One day your son dreams of becoming a game developer, the other day he loses control of his left body, and the next day you celebrate every positive sign of recovery. Be it, raising his leg, lifting his hand, sitting in a wheelchair, and seeing himself in mirror. And we can, because we receive so much support and love from family, friends, and relatives.
We got so far in the past, we will win this one too.
All photographs by Wouter Brandsma